DAY 3 SOL
I want to reflect on two heart-to-heart conversations that I had at school yesterday. I started the day in a meeting with a colleague. We never got to our set agenda. Instead we talked about the successes and struggles within her classroom. We talked about each student and her worries and concerns. We talked about the progress that so many have made. We talked openly and honestly about instruction and the nature of her class. There was plenty of concern and worry for both of us. I am not sure that we found answers but rather some key questions that we need to puzzle over. By the end of our conversation we were both laughing and felt much better just knowing that we could problem solve with one another.
The second heart-to-heart did not end in laughter. I had a talk with one of my older students about her feelings towards reading with me. I push into her room and work with five students individually during their reading workshop. Basically, I am an extra teacher conferencing with students. I have opened the door to her with this conversation. She was very honest with me saying that she does not want to read with me and doesn’t need help. While this conversation left me feeling less than successful as a teacher, I was thankful for her honesty. Now I know what she is feeling and thinking. Yet, this leaves me with more questions: Where did our reading relationship breakdown? How will I repair it? What did I do to cause her to feel this way? Trying to see the bright side, at least she could be honest with me. Now I have to work to better serve her as a reader and respect her as an individual.
Sometimes these hard conversations can be painfully truthful. Sometimes a good heart-to-heart can lift worry and set action into motion. Even if that action is the beginning of our rethinking. Either way, the beauty of these talks is the push they give us to learn and grow together. The challenge of these conversations is 'what is next?' Now both conversations replay in my head and heart as I reach forward.